It seems like everything I have read lately is saying the same thing; have you ever had times like that? I think we all have, times when God was speaking something to us over and over again, I knew God was trying to get this across to me but for the life of me I wasn't getting it.
Everything I read said 'let go of the past and move on.' Each time I would read this or hear it I would take a moment and check my heart and pray. I would go through things of my past and mentally check each one off, certain I was not holding onto anything or anyone that God had removed from my life.
Yet, I continued to have the same word come across my mind or my computer or my phone over and over. This happened again on Saturday morning. I was cleaning my house, had praise music on loudly and began talking to God about this. I told him I knew he was trying to tell me something but I just wasn't getting it. I ask him to help me see what he was saying.
He asked me a question; what are you pining for? Pining is not a word I ever use, I knew it was God. Pining is defined as to yearn deeply and to suffer with longing. When God asked me this question I knew the answer immediately.
The thing I had pined for was the relationship I had with God several years ago. It was a different time for me, I wasn't working, I spent all my time with God, I had nothing else to think about but God and that was a wonderful time for me. His presence in my home was amazing and everyone that walked through my doors knew it.
Now, my home is still peaceful, I still feel God in it but it is different. And I have longed for that time again.
On Saturday I knew God was telling me to let that go. To release that pining and embrace the relationship we have now which is great, more mature, more settled.
Regardless of how good I felt that time was, what God has for me and him right now in this season is better, life with God improves it doesn't diminish and I was stopping the fullness of the new thing from coming to fruition because I was longing for the way it used to be. How sad.
God showed me that day that I could not lay hold of what was ahead until I let go of what was behind.
You simply can't go back and forward at the same time, it is impossible. You have to let go of one thing to lay hold of the new thing. That's what I did on Saturday.
What are you pining for? Is there something in your past, good or bad, that you wish you could have again? Perhaps, like me, it seems to be a good thing. You know there are good things and there are God things. And there are good seasons and there are GOD seasons. God told Lot and his wife, DON'T LOOK BACK. I know that was what he was telling me on Saturday as well. He was saying 'stop looking back Kim, stop pining for what once was, yes it was good but it was necessary for that season, you are in a new season, embrace it and move forward, you will love what we have more than you did what you had back then, if you will only let go of back then and embrace what is now.
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